there is no such thing as strangers, just friends you didnt know you had.

i just finished talking to people i dont know on the internet. when i was little i was always told not to talk to strangers, easy for me because ive always been so shy and had a hard time talking to anybody. but over the past year and a half ive been changing that, ive been forcing myself to go out to social events, to meet new people. ive been trying to expand my group of friends beyond my small circle. im good friends now with more people i went to high school with than i was when i was in high school. i even talk to the girl i had a crush on those 4 years. i found out that she had a crush on me then to. if i had only had the balls then to talk to her, highschool probably wouldnt have sucked so badly. and things might be getting better because she just broke up with her boyfriend. im just being cautious right now on making a move and asking her on a date because i dont want to be just a rebound for her to get back at him with. and i finally realized its time to move on from the last girl i was talking to. i talk to some of her friends and i know they dont really care for the guy she is with and they all tell me what a better guy i am than he is. if she cant see that, then she wasnt worth my time i wasted on her.

it is better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all.

what a load of bullshit. i wish i had never met her. shes the one i think about when i listen to all the sad songs ive been playing lately.

never shop while youre hungry.

just got back from wal-mart with my brother. spent $131 combined on food. should only last us a week. im just glad i dont live with my parents anymore, but still live close enough i can stop in and grab something to eat or else i couldnt afford to eat. its hard to live on $750 a month. $300 is car payment, $200 goes towards my rent. that leaves me with $250 for gas and food and other expenses and about $100 of that is just for gas. i can see why so many more people are living at home for longer than moving out on their own. i know so many people who are in their early to mid 20s still living at home while my parents were on their own when they were still in their teens. i didnt even move out until 2 months before i turned 21, and my mom has already invited me to move back in with them.

every now and then i watch this video

pale blue dot

this is one of the video's anybody can watch and understand the message. doesnt matter what belief you have, just watch this video.

my dog understands me better than anyone else

i think the worst part about living with my older brother is not having my dog living with me. my dad came by earlier today and brought her along since she loves coming over here and jumping into my bed and getting under the covers. now my bed smells like dog. it was time to wash the sheets anyways.

Happy Halloween

sitting here eating all of the twix out of  the bag of candy i bought for the trick or treaters. i swear im not fat. only problem is i forgot i already put razor blades in most of the candy and keep cutting up my mouth. im concerned by the lack of anyone having costume parties today. i want to dress up as something slutty.