leaving for florida today

havent packed or planned anything. ive always lived my life by the seat of my pants. do everything last minute. i did do most of my laundry yesterday so i would have clean cloths to take. thats about as much ive gotten done for this trip. gonna be one hell of a drive. ill post some pictures of the launch when i get back.

laundry day is my favorite day of the week

nothing like putting on a nice warm jacket on a cool fall day in texas. its been fall for over a month and its just now not feeling like summer. and all the leaves are starting to change color and fall off the trees leaving them bare  in a month from now. i love going for walks through the forest preserve near my house on days like today. to bad there is no one to walk with.

i can still see why kids love the taste of cinamon toast crunch.

when i was planning on joining the airforce i had to take a test like the one above to see if i had any sort of colorblindness. luckily  i dont, i can see all of the numbers in all of the circles just fine. my only vision problem is i cant see distances without my contacts. in fact im legally blind without them since its greater than 20/400. im kind of like hellen keller except i can drive because im not a woman.

i was born to soon to explore the galaxy.

so in 4 days i plan on driving to florida to watch the space shuttle launch. its the second to last time in history it will be sending people into orbit. ive always been amazed by outer space. i spend so many nights laying out on my roof outside my window staring at the stars and the moon. my fascination with space is because of my grandpa. he used to work for nasa back in the 60s during the apollo program. he helped design some of the communications equipment on the landing craft. i dont know why we arent living on the moon right now. you think that we would have been back at some point in the last 40 years.

you dont always have to be a hero

i usually love nightmares for some reason. i always wake up from them with an adrenaline rush and it feels pretty good getting one since i dont skateboard anymore. but there is one nightmare ive had a few times i just absolutely hate, its ones in which my older brother is killed in a line of duty. my brother is a cop, just like my dad. ive had nightmares about my dad being killed also and i hate having those too. i just worry about them. i dont know where my life would be without them. especially my older brother, he may be an ass most of the time but he has shown me huge kindness by letting me live with him. i just hope he never catches me smoking weed.

what the fuck am i watching

there is apparently a MAD tv show on cartoon network and its full of sexual innuendos and shit. its highly crude and poorly drawn. i think im in love. or maybe im just high. yeah, im pretty high right now watching this shit.

my gun doesnt make me a big man but it lets me function like one

just got back from the shooting range with my younger brother. its strange because he likes guns, drives a truck and cowboy's butts drive him nuts. not the typical gay guy. only bad thing is i got hit with hot brass being ejected out of my gun. that really fucking hurts. i would hate to get shot with a bullet. about to go drink a beer, watch tv and smoke a bowl in true american spirit.